I seem to be constantly cross these days, and irritable, a bit like the days just before AF arrives. You know the feeling that you've only got one nerve left and someone is on it
It doesn't seem to matter if I'm at home, out with friends or family doing something leisurely or at work. Obviously at work I cant let how I'm feeling show (and probably go overboard being nice!) but then the cross-ness and frustration at being in pain with endo builds up for when I leave. But I think that is linked to knowing that the sofa and hot water bottle awaits at home as don't have the strength or energy to do anything else.
As other ladies have said cancelling social events happens quite a lot but then I get annoyed that I couldn't attend due to feeling like poo
I feel incredulous and could almost laugh out loud when I look back at what I used to do during my working week. I worked at least 37 hours in my regular job but also had a second job working occasional weekends. Each lunchtime during my office job I would do some form of exercise; aerobics, swimming or circuit training. I also followed this by doing more exercise 3 evenings a week.
Now I cant remember the last time I did serious exercise. I do walk most places but its nowhere near the same level of activity. Not surprisingly the pounds have piled on and at my last hospital pre-op I was horrified when the nurse weighed me.
I keep telling myself its hard to do normal things when your insides feel like they are being wrung out (like getting excess water out of a towel). I'm now 12 weeks post-op from my third lot of surgery and waiting to feel like my old self but losing faith that my symptoms are going to show any improvement.
Sorry for the low post but this is how endo is making me feel
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