I've been in major pain in some form or other for the last 5 years, had three rotten ops in the last two years alone which has resulted in my not being able to have children (which I wanted badly) and spent weeks/years of my time not being able to go out with friends, etc etc due to being in agony with this bl@~dy condition!!
I'm currently on HRT following last op 4 weeks ago to remove my final ovary which had been left in post hysterectomy and I can't stop crying, my hair feels all funny and I feel grotty. I'm still in pain on my left side where I had a lot of endo excised (which had despite all efforts and a hysterectomy come back to haunt me) and to be honest I'm losing all the fight I had left in me.
My OH is working late all the time, spending all the time when he's home on his mobile on the web and I'm feeling to be honest unloved and unlovable if that makes sense?
Sorry for going on, I know I should be grateful there are people far worse off than me I just feel that you girls are the only ones who actually understand how I'm feeling. Hope you don't mind me letting off steam.
xxxx
(although a bit of a rant did help!)
